Freedom

Today was an important day for me. I started out by eating a healthy breakfast with all the food groups invited. ^_^. And I had a math test, spent some time sharpening my video game skills, got into it with a close friend, complained about it to another, came home and read something very comforting that some one very great and wise and close to me wrote, to me. The reason today was so important is because I acknowledged a lot. First I realized that I am my own worst enemy, not math. Of course I already knew this, and I was aware that I often felt very anxious when it came to math, but, I really showed myself. I was able to calm myself for this math test even though I was unsure of knowing everything I needed to know. I helped myself to not get worked up and forget everything, I realized my strength! Secondly, Getting into with my friend also taught me something I am having a hard time grasping. I can lead a horse to water but I can't make it drink. I can tell someone what is unhealthy and I can tell some one how not to hurt themselves, but I can't make them better themselves or keep them from hurting themselves. But I do not have to sit there and let myself be used as a crutch. I do not need someone telling me to not get involved even though they know they are hurting themselves but then tell me to be there when they are hurting. I don't need to be used by the ones I love just because I love them. Lastly, sometimes when you think you have lost something so dear to you and you search and search and cannot seem to find it, when it pains you to even think about, sometimes you never lost it at all, it just wasn't what you thought it was. Well, it's what you thought it was but it isn't in the form you thought it was. I just want to say that I love my Grandpa. And I always will. I may realize I don't need other ppl or things that I thought I did, but I will always have my grandpa and I will always love him. Today was an important because I had a lot open up to me. I feel so free, like how your body feels when you are just floating, suspended in water. Kinda like your flying. That's why I posted this picture, it shows the sky which indicates freedom, but it also shows the road which indicates a path for you to follow. I feel like my work is cut out for me and in that I am free!